I'm doing the best I can.

My eyes have been opened,
I understand now,
why nobody can love me.
I’m caught in a cloud,
not one that holds rain,
or provides you with shade,
my cloud is constructed,
of mistakes I have made.

I’m sorry for not being,
a person that’s well,
For my thoughts and emotions,
my presence and smell,
my excuse as a person,
my own personal hell.

I just wish I’d succeeded,
so I could see what I had
I might’ve been famous,
had a wife, been a dad
but nobody gets near me,
or cares who I am,
If my life was like others,
I might’ve had friends.

Nobody would notice if I left and I ran,
and that’s how I know,
I’m just a waste of a man.

I’m scared.

My dad, step-mom, and 2 year old brother were shot in the head Sunday before last.
I was the one that had to tell the coroners office what to do with my families remains.
Last week I had to plan my own dads funeral. I’m only 23 and I lost my best friend.

All this happened in the blink of my eye, and all I could concentrate on was the fact that my birthday was tomorrow and I realized I wasn’t going to get a “happy birthday” text from my dad.

I can never talk to him again. He has been taken from me and as a result I’m lost. I’m not hurt, mad, or any of those things… I feel nothing, I feel empty.

I’ve cried for days and then I’ll try to be happy. I know he would want me to make it past this, to keep my own life going and live on.

But I can’t, any second not spent dwelling on my family I feel even more terrible for trying to distract myself.

My dad was my best friend, a short drive away, phone call, text message… Always reassuring me he’s here to help and give his support…

Well dad, I need that now more than anything. My heart hurts knowing I didn’t get to tell you how great you were or how much I love you.

I just hope you knew that..
I’m only making it through this with fading smiles, and false happiness,
I want you to be proud of me.

I miss you dad :(

I’m scared.

Hey stranger, didn't know how else to contact you. I heard about what happened and I hope you and Ashley are doing okay. I know how bad that must suck. I wish there was something I could do for y'all.

Thank you..


Take the scenic route EVERYWHERE

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My own mind has destroyed me.
(via suicidal-dreaminq)
Try not to feel jealous about things, or people or places. It’s toxic. Just keep living. You will find your happiness.
(via deliriosity)

Untitled By Ramin Hossaini

Untitled By Ramin Hossaini


It’s so sad that some of the loveliest and kindest people dislike themselves a lot


my brother had a dream he spent 20 dollars on a hotdog and he woke up screaming

Tomorrowland 2014

Tomorrowland 2014